now you’re just somebody that i used to know.
This week…
Ex-husband called “just to check in.” Cue eyeroll. I think more than anything he wants to make sure I know about his new relationship and that he’s moving at the end of summer. Allow me to sum up what I wish I would’ve said… MAZEL AND BON VOYAGE! Unfortunately I went with ten minutes of chatting and mostly just redirected to the dogs whenever it got awkward. Hopefully that fills our phone time quota for the remainder of 2012.
The Crush called about a board we’re both on and to see if I still had “the love bug” with AB. I told him I was a smitten kitten and had never been happier. Then, because he’s just THAT ridiculous, he also texted asking me to go to a concert and saying he didn’t think anyone should know if we did go. Immature SGD would like to post on his FB wall that sure golly gee that sounds like a fun idea and we should totally go together! Instead I just told AB about the invite and we laughed at just how sad of an attempt that was.
CW comes in town for a long weekend tonight. I have drafted, deleted, and removed any further desire to re-draft an email to him. His few personal belongings are being dropped off on Saturday morning without any face time and I have resisted the urge to check in on his weekend plans via our mutual friends. Growing up over here.
Riiiiiiiiiight. So there’s that.
Not sure why all three of them pop up at once but I’m not giving any of them the power to negatively come into my life anymore and it feels amazing to hold that power and control. Crush will always be someone that I have some sort of interaction with because of mutual friends and our volunteer organization and that’s fine. It’s sad to see him dating someone and still pulling all of the same things he’s been doing for a year and a half. I hope for her sake she can see through him faster than I did.
As for ex-hubs and CW? It wasn’t until I heard the Glee version (no judgement) of Goyte’s “somebody that I used to know” that it really clicked for me… That song almost perfectly sums up how things finally ended with both of them. Each relationship was very different and looking back at the now non-existant friendships/relationships I can say that I am on different sides of those lyrics at different points. But it’s over. It’s all finally over with both of them. Not only do I not know them anymore but I don’t know the person I was that allowed myself to be in those toxic relationships.
I’m getting stronger, more confident, and becoming a woman who knows what she wants. The most amazing part of all of it may be the incredible man I have by my side as I continue along in this process. It’s a kind of love I didn’t think existed with a man I feel ridiculously lucky to have met and I can’t wait to see what comes next as I continue to leave these old relationships and bad habits in the past.
